I have really been struggling with missing T the past couple of days.

I know he's worked hard to make therapy safe for me again, and to make himself available, and to encourage attachment, and I guess it's worked.

I saw him Monday, and I have no way of communicating with him until tomorrow. Or rather, I can communicate with him (I can leave voice mails, send e-mails) but he won't communicate back.

I know how not rational it is, but I guess I feel kind of abandoned. He did tell me he would e-mail Saturday or Sunday so I guess maybe I will hear from him today. I'm just so freaking ANXIOUS about it.

We've had a lot of contact lately...2 or 3 sessions a week, an e-mail over the weekend, occasional contact between sessions, and going from all of that to a week of *nothing* is hard.

It completely sends me to the "I don't even want to be in stupid therapy!" place. Sometimes I think it would be better to leave my wounds how they are and not add in this new level of anxiety/attachment/confusion/sadness.

Just venting. I know a lot of us are probably going through this this week.

Oh, and as an aside, I wish SO MUCH he would let me text. I know for a fact that there is at least one other client who can text. Just to be able to say "are you there?" and get a "yes" would make ALL OF THIS BETTER. But I asked, and the answer was no. So. Whatever.

Thanks for listening