(((Nightsky)))
I am glad you were able to patch things up with your T, that he wanted to work things through with you. I guess the attachment feelings of pain get better, but never really go away. Sometimes they are worse than others.

I understand you not wanting to go back. It's like, why bother? It feels like nobody cares. Nobody from the past, nobody now. It is hard tolerating not being able to make contact. I'm kind of sick of everything and am so over it all!!!!!!!!!!!! I feel for you. I hope you get to see your T soon