Today has been one of 'those' days. I just feel really sad and blue and don't know why. It was bad enough that one of the leaders from my PHP program held me after class to talk to me. I wish I knew why I was feeling this way, then maybe I could make it better. All that keeps running through my head is ways for me to leave this world behind. I hate it when it gets this bad. I am taking my meds like I am supposed to, but apparently it can take up to four weeks for them to take full effect, so there is nothing the dr can do about that. So until then I just get to feel miserable. I feel numb.