That does sound really hard. I struggle with the attachment because I have always had just the one session a week, and for me it's really hard to hold onto a picture of my therapist still being out there or keeping me in mind. She has now told me she won't initiate contact in between sessions again (even though it was infrequent) because it was friend-like. She also forgot to call me when she said she would, the first time I've asked in four years, when I really needed help. She hadn't remembered when I contacted her the next day and was no longer in the same city as me.

Although I'm not struggling for quite the same reasons at the moment, I really get the feeling. I'm losing something that I needed and something that was stable.

You're really amazing for all you've managed with your T.