I’ve gotten used to being single and having few friends, but… *******it, I just feel so freaking lonely sometimes. I just wish I had someone to cuddle with, to talk to whenever I feel like it, to just be there for me. To even love me, maybe.

I don't know how to change this. I feel so alone. And then I get so mad at happy people because I'm not one of them.

I've tried meeting new people, I've tried online dating. Nothing worked, nothing helped. I just end up by myself eventually.

I feel like crying, but I think I have no tears left. I just feel so empty.

The one really positive person in my life is my therapist, but I've been through a phase of painful obsession with her and I don't want to go back to that place. She understands and encourages me so well, but she can't give me what I need.

Other people seem to be able to find love and happiness so easily. And I think I'm a good person; so why can't it work for me?

Often, I'd just like to strike up a conversation with people I meet in every day life. I'd like to think I have nothing to lose; but then I remember (and this is important to me) that most people already have a big network of friends and acquaintances and aren't lonely. They wouldn't need me half as much as I'd need them. They wouldn't care if some weird lonely person started talking to them.

Sometimes I think life is so unfair.