I definitely am dreading Christmas. I am glad I am not the only one. Just the thought of it makes me sick to my stomach. Last Christmas I was in another country with my fiance. I was extremely happy. Now that we aren't together it is extremely difficult for me to deal with this time of year. It is really depressing for me, and I honestly don't know how I am going to get through it... This year I am off of work for two weeks during Christmas.. That means two weeks of sitting at home dreading my life and thinking about the past and what once was. Sitting at home being completely depressed. Yeah, definitely am dreading it.

I know it's supposed to be a "wonderful time" of the year and a happy and blissful time. Truth is it hasn't been that for me in a long while, apart from last year. I am just ready for it to all be over with, but we have a lot of these to get through so I guess we might as well get used to it...