Bless your heart Brookwest -- I too remember when you posted about your wife's illness. I am so very sorry for her loss. I know what grieving is. It is very painful, and I hope you have support there to talk to, face-to-face. We will always be here for you too -- don't forget that. Anytime you want or need to talk, we'll be here.

There are 5 stages of grief: Shock, anger, depression, bargaining, and acceptance. I never went thru the bargaining stage, but I went thru all the others when my husband died. The grieving process takes as long as it takes. It's different for everyone -- just don't try to hurry it. You'll know when you feel better.

God bless you my friend, and my prayers are with you. Please take care of yourself. Hugs, Lee