Thanks, granite.

I haven't really worked through much of my "parent" issues in therapy yet....I love my parents so much, and it's hard to work through when my dad is gone...and I miss him terribly...I'm not sure if it's just denial, self-blame, self-hatred, guilt, love, or what.

I know it's all intertwined somehow - the abusive upbringing, the CSA's (outside of the home) from age 5 through to adulthood, my marriage, my abusive bosses....It's crazy how much of a magnet one can be to attract so much horror.

I'll work through it one of these days....(( HUGS ))