(((((((((Jacqueline))))))))))

I know how you feel - been there done that (and actually went back and did it again and had my first appointment yesterday.)

You do NOT have to tell your roomate - say you have an appointment and leave it at that. If she questions you further, say you're getting help with the transition to university (which is a problem that a LOT of first years have - okay 99.9% of new students!!!) She should accept it. If she makes a mean comment or jokes about it, shrug it off. You're taking care of yourself, which is the most responsible thing you could ever do. If it ever comes to the point where you're comfortable telling her what you're going for appointments in, then you can tell her. My roomate for example knows I'm in therapy, and she knows that some of it is for depression but she does not know that another one of my reasons is how to deal with her!

Counsellors don't think you're being dramatic and doing it for attention - because you are not. I think they'd rather you taking care of yourself in therapy than being out there without it and risk all sorts of problems. They actually do care. I know its a bit alienating seeing someone new for the first time, but be open about how you think they might receive you. If you think they're treating you in a way because you think that they're thinking you're lying or doing something for attention - ASK THEM about it! They don't bite. Also their should be more than one therapist at your university right? If one doesn't work out, ask to see someone new. Its about the best fit for you because they want you to succeed in university.

You're unhappy for many different reasons, you might not know them but through therapy you can try to figure it out.

Good luck at the university centre getting that appointment of yours!!

I know you're scared - but it will be okay. First time is always a bit unerving but the therapists know that so they'll do whatever they can to make you feel comfortable.

*hugs* Take care of yourself