I can understand your concern. I so get that you don't like to dump your stuff on others and they do not know what to do when you do. I think you are saying you appear happy on the outside but on the inside you are hurting and no one sees it either because they can't or you don't let them.

I am glad you are here at PC talking to us about it. We do care and have most likely been there. Keep talking to us. Do you go to T or have a P doc. That might help.