Yeah, I know even if he doesn't call, I'll move on, there's someone out there for everyone, right? It doesn't make it any easier to have a guy blow me off, I feel like there must be something wrong with me. I thought we had a really great date last week, he said we should go out this friday and he that he would call me sometime this week, but it's wednesday night, and he hasn't called. It's so frustrating, because I've made myself vulnerable, and now I have to wait for HIM to make the next move. I hate not being in control. I feel awful, if he doesn't call tonight, I'm going to be really depressed.

I feel sick thinking about it! I have a bad feeling...I have issues with self-esteem, and this really makes me feel worthless and ugly. I don't know why dating is so hard for me, it's always been difficult, I never feel as though guys find me attractive...but if I was this wouldn't be a problem. I keep questioning myself, what if I'm just too stupid or socially inept or ugly for any guy to be interested in me? This is why I can't date anymore, I really can't handle this kind of rejection.