Hi lizcb, welcome to PC!

Sorry if I go off on a bit of a tangent, but I wanted to share a little bit of myself to see if anything of what I say "fits" or can apply to you and your life.

I have a nice family too, and am seeing a guy myself. But I'm still miserable. I feel alone and that a lot of my life has been wasted doing things others wanted me to do and me thinking about stuff I should have done and stuff I shouldn't have as well. Being alone is very depressing, and it makes me scared and sad too - and I hide behind a mask of being happy or can only be happy when I'm around my friends.

I don't know what could be wrong, but because everyone is different I really couldn't tell you. I just know that it will get better and that being sad doesn't mean you always will be.

My suggestions? Find someone to talk to. Someone who won't judge you - if you can get a religious official (if you're religious), a therapist, a counsellor, or a really good friend... that can help. Talking can help bring to light any problems or feelings that could be making you less than happy.

*hugs* I hope you feel better soon and find someone to talk to.