Night time is my time. I struggled with this all my life. I've always been a night owl. As a one-two year old I couldn't sleep until 10 pm which I hear is unusual for a young child. They simply stopped trying putting me to bed until it was my time. When it was, I went to sleep without fussing.

In school especially later on, I was constantly sleep deprived because I never fell asleep because my sleep pattern told me it was time, I fell asleep from exhaustion day after day. I didn't even question it, I thought it was how everyone else did it. When I grew up, I realized people can actually have a feeling in their body when it is time to go to bed and get up. My body really doesn't tell me midnight is sleep time. Also there is no way it will ever tell me 7 am is getting up time. 7 am no matter if I actually get up, will always be hell-o'clock.

I have DSPS which is a sleep disorder, but I also think maybe I'm supposed to be this way? Does it maybe have an evolutionary edge to have some night owls around? I've used to look at it from a neurological view and yea, we're "off" there. But maybe we're supposed to be? I wonder if I'm changing my mind here.

At least it takes some "guilt" away from being disordered.