Well, I don't know if that is maybe the word? I do feel so dissapointed with myself when I lose out or miss out on a possible friendship due to this, it is best described I think as "social anxiety"? My pdoc says try to follow my recline in invites by saying, "I'm sorry but I have to do. . .but maybe we can set another day or time to get together". He say's this way I do not have to feel the other person(s) will think I am a snob or just anti-social. It is remarkable how it is easy for me to socialize here but face to face I freeze up, or it takes me awhile to feel comfortable. I just don't allow myself to get too close, resulting in being alone, which I've grown to accept that I'll always be in this "little world of my own, a safe place".
If you ever want to PM me please feel free In my case I think this "phobic" kind of thing stems way back to childhood and stuff that was happening in my family, long story
Take care,
** hugs to you **
"darkeyes"