When I have been in this place, I'm kind of walking through my life in a dissociated fog, like there is this foggy space between me and the rest of the world, and space between me and the rest of me somewhere inside my head, including a younger girl.

I don't think it's a good time to be canceling T sessions, as the one thing you can do for you and to take care of her is to go to T and let her help you.