When I am feeling depressed I have these thoughts that completely take over my mind. Reason goes out the window. I am convinced that there is nothing about me that anyone could love. I feel like I am a drain/burden to everyone and that the people I love would be better off without me in their lives. I feel like there is a huge weight inside and the pain will not go away. I cry often and can think of little else than this overwhelming sense that I am unlovable and a dissapointment. When dear friends try to help me, I push them away and put up walls. I feel ashamed and scared.