I am on the 100 mg dose now of the Zoloft. I am sleeping ok I guess. I think the weekend was fun even though it was gross and rainy. My little dog is making me feel good. I have trained her to do some tricks--at 4 /12 months old I think she is completely brilliant!

I am trying that flylady thing and look forward to starting Monday off hopefuly keeping my head above water.I hope all is well with you all. I have to enjoy the good times because lately there are SO many bad times. I haven't been unhappy like I have lately in about 10 years. It kind of scares me sometimes because 10 years ago it only affected me...now I have 5 kids. I had a friend who told me that mayb e I needed to go back to work and get some affirmation from that kind of work since motherhood is a "thankless job" and isolating at times. The thing is that I couldn't keep a job to save my life and never have. I have nightmares about going back. I can't handle keeping my house up much less a job. I actually dread going back one day. Nothing quite like more failure to reinstate my foundations of depression!

Until then I am going to enjoy this day and the good things in it. HOpefully I can stockpile my happiness for a rainy day in the near future!