May I ask you WHY you love him? Are you sure it's love and not dependency? You said that you don't have anywhere else to go -- that sounds like dependency to me. So are you really SURE it's love?

How can you love someone who calls you the "C" word? How can you love someone who calls you "fatso?" Or "no good?" Or tells you he wants you OUT? How can you love someone like that? Just because he gives you money to buy things? What else does he do for you? Is that it -- he gives you money?

When is the last time he really DID something for you? When is the last time he told you he loved you? When is the last time he helped you around the house? Since he doesn't work, I'm betting he hasn't helped YOU in a very long time. When is the last time he told you that you were pretty?

What DOES he do for you? Why do you stay with this man? You say he scares you. You say he treats you horribly. Do you stay with him because you feel you can't get anyone else? That's ridiculous!!! YES YOU CAN.

Get rid of this awful man. One day he WILL HIT YOU. It's just a matter of time. With his anger problem, he will hit you or worse. He needs to see a therapist for his anger problem -- but i doubt that he would. Please ask him to though. Perhaps he will agree to. There's some reason for his anger, and it's NOT YOU.

I wish you the very best. Please take care of yourself, and God bless. Hugs, Lee