I try to stay on top of my physical health, working-out, being aware of what pills I'm taking for medical conditions (I have asthma and pcos, so screwy hormone levels, which complicate emotional health), taking a multi-vitamin and B-12 and Omega-3 supps.

Medical screening haven't really shown anything new, so I think it is just the same, old issues flaring up again. I'm starting therapy tomorrow (actually have two appointments with different doctors, and I'm going to see who I think can help more), and I also have a psychiatrist appointment. She'll want to get me on another antidepressant, which I personally do not want for myself. I might take the prescription and just not take the meds. I just stopped taking Zoloft a week ago, and I want to know what I will feel like without any meds. And I certainly don't want to take drugs forever, which she suggests. We'll see...

It takes a conscious effort to feel better. Part of me has been avoiding that, even as I mourned the loss of "feeling normal."