Unfortunately, I don’t have the energy or the time to write a long response, and I am behind on sending replies to VMs, PMs, and emails because I have been active in the community, or in other words never home. Tomorrow I won’t be home until after 10:00 PM, and I don’t think I will want to do anything but go to bed.

However, I am always afraid of being stupid because I feel like there is absolutely nothing else about me that is worthwhile, therefore if I am not intelligent, I am nothing. People tell me I am intelligent, but I don’t see it, all I see are faults of mine. If there is always someone better, than why like me at all, why not like those that are better? Some of the men I hang out with have graduated from major universities, and the fact that all I have is a high school diploma makes me want to crawl into a corner and hide.

Just feel so stupid all the time, or more accurately not good enough.