I found most of my serious depression, I tend to think about suicide, I've attempted sucide three times in my life, and often thought about it, been hospitalized 5 times in 2 years, but as I got older I don't know but I've been more obsessed about my dog and the fact that I have a dog that I love so much, it just hurts me to think about kiling myself and leaving him behind, so in a way he is saving my life sometimes. I know that sounds crazy but it works for me.