Oh, yes. I have found it incredibly difficult to open up to my T the way I need to - even now after seeing him 2-3x/week for 4 years. I find it much easier to type the words than to say them....so I have emailed him some things that have been difficult for me to say. Is this an option for you?

I'd imagine that it would be better for you to find a way to communicate with your T rather than having your boyfriend do it, because so much information is lost (as it is through his eyes, not yours) when done by a third party. But, it's still better than not getting the information to your T at all.

Please don't be so hard on yourself. You are not alone in this struggle.