I am a 21 year old boy I have had a happy life I know my mother loves me my older brother would do anything for me and my father always made sure we were happy healthy and financially stable. I don't remember much of my childhood but I have no real reason to suspect it was anything other than above average. The first truely obvious and observable issue with me is I have had a reoccurring dream for as long as I can remember. It is not always the same dream but there is one person constant throughout all of them and the general flow is the same. The first time I remember having the dream was when I was eleven I think. It started with me playing Nintendo 64 as I very often. The legend of Zelda ocarina of time. As I was playing a very familiar girl I had to my knowledge never met before came out of the game and led me into the game with her. She was a beautiful thin blond girl with sapphire blue eyes and a nose that though I didn't realize it during the earlier dreams gave the impression of having been broken before. She was perfect in my eyes and after some time adventuring through the world of hyrule we began to become somewhat romantic (by eleven year old mes standards... We even held hands) it was then that the bad creatures from the game started to attack. We fled for safety and just before we reached it ganondorf the main villain from the game impaled her through the stomach at which point I believe I woke up. I have been similar dreams ever since the most recent (last night) took place in a Japanese restaurant. The story always has the same themes we escape we fall in love trouble finds us she dies. Over time a few parts change for one she has aged with me. But the basics remain the same. I never thought much of it until I started to realize that I had practically no childhood memories and the ones I do have I'm not sure are real some of them I think are stories I've been told happened and created memories to fill the space. But still I didn't think much of it till one day a song came on the radio while I was in my car and I started to cry. I'm not sure why I'm usually a fairly emotionally calm and low key person but I was crying to a song from the nineties. There's more to this story but typing it honestly has me a little shaken and it's 1:30 am so I shall stop here for now.