I am in a good spot right now to offer encouragement to everyone who needs it.
Earlier today was very different, as I plunged yet again into despair. I hate the ups and downs, but its all part of this incideus disorder called depression.
Don't get me wrong, depression has destroyed my finances, my marriage, my family, and my life.
But I have a daughter who needs her daddy...and I need her! She is only 6 and as sweet and loving as a child can be.
She did not understand why mommy and daddy fought and yelled at each other. I was so stressed out and confused about who I was and at my many failures in life that I lashed out at my wife, rather than looking into my own self for answers. Depression does that and now I understand that, but what a heavy price to pay...my wife and I are separated.
We don't fight anymore and I do my best to listen now as she explains all the ways I caused problems in our 16 year marriage. I hurt herdeeply.
I hurt my daughter as well, but she forgave me and loves me so much! She is my greatest joy and motivation to push thru my ups and downs!
So here I am right now, on an upswing....offering encouragement because we all need it and we all can make it!
Never give up!