I saw T today and we discussed the email I sent her ( I always send her an email with the things I want to discuss because it is easier for me to open up if I do that). Anyway, I mentioned in the email that I wanted her to hug me and tell me everything is okay. It is something I have wanted to bring up for a while and I am glad I finally did. I said that I know it is not her job to do that and I should be going to friends/family for that kind of support but I can't open up to any of them.

T said it is not necessarily that it isn't her "job" but it wouldn't be what is best for me to give me that kind of support. She said it is understandable to want affection from her since it is a safe environment and I have shared a lot of personal things with her but it would be more helpful to work on my relationships outside of therapy to get the affection that I want rather than relying on our 1hr sessions every fortnight.

I guess I wont be getting a hug from T anytime soon but I think it is probably for the best!