My therapist doesn't allow me to email like that. I have written things down and given them to her to read during my appointments quite often though. Sometimes it takes a while for things to be safe to say. Sometimes you just have to start small. I took a long time to tell my therapist that I'd once had an extreme fear of throwing up too. I'd largely managed to rather miraculously force the fear away in my late teens but it would still show up at stressful times (like during my first therapy appointment, I remember feeling so sick and wanting to leave).

Sometimes you can just start small by saying there are issues you'd like to talk about that are really hard for you so you'd need to start very slowly, without too much pressure to talk too much about them. You could decide which of these big issues would be the easiest one for you to talk about first. All you need to begin with is hinting about the topic. You don't have to jump right into all the hardest details of it.

Once you start sharing one difficult thing, I think you'll start to find it easier and easier. You learn how much you can trust and rely on your therapist. They hear all sorts of things and aren't looking to judge you. They just want to help you, and the more details you give them, the more they can help.

I do know that it's possible to have these huge fears and to then overcome them, even when they were once severe enough to control and dominate your life.