There's a better step right there V. Getting beyond feeling like you're stupid to feeling like you're not good enough. The latter is real enough. Not a great feeling either but valid. Many feel like this to varying degrees...it's bugging you a lot. That's easy to see and workable from that point of view. The previous is you battering yourself. Likely at a particularly low point....and based on the exaggerated emotion extant. Sound right?

I'm not the brightest coin but by God I can see a few things. Not seeing it all right now doesn't diminish my intelligence. Evolution V. You're not exempt from having to evolve...you can't reach any heights without putting in time and effort. It's way too easy to bemoan what you don't or may never have. Damn bad habit to acquire. You fight that....and listen here...try to write that stuff you mentioned on the other thread. Resume building it is and the growth in building that, is nothing if not pro-active concerning your future and personal growth. Doing stuff moves you forward. Staying in neutral ain't it and you know it. Please shake this miasma enough to take a step or two further. Forward is forward. 2kph or 100. Yes.

Hey...I just noticed...you mentioned being active in the community...does not this help with some of your difficulties? What sort of things are you involved in? You must be proud and interested or surely you couldn't be bothered to do this. Anyway...I repeat...what-ever your situation...write the articles or whatever the magazine folks are after. Would likely be good for you. Cheers V.