Shikma,

Welcome to PC. I hope you will be able to handle any frustration with the language & stick around. There are great people here who are very helpful & caring......who are great at listening & also have great helpfull thoughts.

I would think that living in Israel would be stressful living conditions with everything that is going on politically. With your daily living conditions that are all around you being stressful, I can't imagine how it is to deal with that on top of your personal stresses. I would imagine that is all adds up to being almost impossible to deal with......so I can understand your feelings.

I know that when I am living around a stressful situation, I end up with nausea that causes me not to eat. I keep myself from throwing up by not eating rather than letting my self throw up like I feel like doing. Many other people will end up binging on food when they are dealing with stress. I know for me, that everything that goes on around me in my life has a direct effect on my ability to eat & ends up turning into an eating disorder.

I don't know if you have a therapists there in Israel, but I would suggest that you find a professional therapist & psychiatrist to help you with what you are going through. They can help with the stress you are dealing with & I would imagine that help with the stress would also help with the eating issues you are having.

The psychologist I have here in the US is from Isreal. He was born in Isreal & has lived there on & off after getting his psychologist degree here in the United States His family & his wifes family live there. His daughter , son in law, & granddaughter (4 years old) were just there visiting for their granddaughters birthday. While they were there, the fighting broke out. They tried hard to keep her mind on enjoying her birthday but talk about the fighting was all around her.

I know that the psychologist I have is so kind & caring. I have been seeing him for almost 10 years now & he has been able to help me with the depression I started out with. He has been really great at working me through the trauma I just went through & the anxiety & anorexia that I have been dealing with which is my reaction to the trauma. I think if you could find someone like him, he could help you think & work through the things that are bothering you. You need someone who knows about what you are going through in your everyday life around you along with the issues that are causing the mess inside of you.

I think it is important for you to understand that you aren't being a baby......there is no way that trying to live with the situation that is around you daily could ever be thought of as being a baby. Being scared of life is a normal reaction to the everything that is going on around you. I know that if I wwere in the same situation, I would want to go to sleep & have it all go away before I woke up again too. I feel that way many times here & my life is physically very safe compared to the conditions you live with daily.

I know that I went through a huge fear of being arrested & put into jail for something I didn't do when I caught the woman who was caring for my mother stealing her identity & then she had the police called to the house to accuse me of abusing my Mother. After I found out that she had OD'ed my Mother on morphine, I feared what she might do to me to keep me from reporting her actions to the police. That fear I felt is something i am still dealing with & my reaction to fear always causes eating problems.

What you are going through is completely normal for what you are living with....but if you aren't in contact with others that are feeling the same, you aren't able to realize how normal your feelings actually are.

Please stay with us here at PC. Hopefully we will be able to encourage you & maybe we can point you into the direction to get some professional therapy help.

we care alot....please don't give up,
Debbie