I have no words of wisdom either Granite. I just want you to know I feel you and I know how much this hurts. I have always seen or felt something coming on and checked via overindulging. This past week I have not checked out and it has sucked! I want to run to my old ways, the familiar ones that work and alleviate the pain. To hide from my feelings and self. Thanks to damn therapy, I know its not the way to heal and therefore I have guilt now when I do. Can't unring that bell! I wonder if this is the hardest part? If we can make it through this surely it doesn't get harder, I can't even imagine anything worse. It feels like I'm chipping away at a concrete wall with a finger nail file....long, so so long....