When I first went to my pdoc, at the height of the "black cloud period" as I refer to my depression, my h took me and he came in with me and actually did most of the talking describing to pdoc what I was like at home, I pretty much just sat there and cried and nodded my head now and then in agreement with what h was saying. It can be helpful to have someone close to you come along so they can help you get the words across.

I started seeing my t like a year and a half or something after I first went to pdoc. I wasn't ready to try talking to anyone at first. But once I did start seeing my t, I never took anyone with me there. When there were dificult things I couldn't bring myself to talk about, I wrote them out and most of the times I did that, she had me read them to her, but there were a couple where I said "NO. You read it." And she did.

I wish you all the best! There is definitely light at the end of this tunnel, I am here to attest to that, I'm currently in the termination phase of my therapy and feeling very ready to 'take it from here'. My t has been such a tremendous help to me. Even though sometimes the work was difficult and I wanted to quit, I'm so glad that I stuck it out. It is SOOOOO worth it!