((unhappyguy)) - I'm sorry you're so depressed and feel out of place in the gay community. I know you can't relate to the majorities lifestyle, but there are some who are looking for a real relationship. Would it be possible to concentrate on the friend aspect, based on shared commonalities.

I find all your posts very interesting and you think similar to myself on political issues etc. If I like you, then I know others will. Maybe you can meet a man with similar orientation, but stress you want friendship first. Would you be interested in volunteering for something you feel passionate about? When we're in the pit of pessimism, its hard to see any light or possibility for change. Forget about the sex part for now and if you communicating online .....focus on friendship being very important to avoid men who are just looking for sex only.