Sorry to hear that ((unhappyguy)). Have those volunteering experiences been with something you feel passionate about? Reason I'm asking is - if we group ourselves around something we love doing, we don't have to try as hard to fit in because all in the groups love the same thing. Do you have any hobbies or like to attend theater etc.? I don't want to pester you too much since you're down already. What I know for sure is, there's people here who care and like you. There was even a few times where your post was exactly what I was thinking, so there has to be people who'll like and enjoy being around you. TBH I don't like the party crowds either or the superficial conversations. For now its fine to accept your circumstances but don't give up on the hope of something getting better. Form friendships based on shared ideas and it doesn't matter if they're a man or woman or young or old.