I just don't care anymore...

I feel like I'm like, uh, dreaming. It's like I'm numb, I can't feel a thing. I totally don't feel like doing the things I used to (playing guitar, writing and other stuff), and now I really don't feel like doing the things I NEED to do (eating, cleaning my room....).

Sometimes I'm just sitting here in my room at night and I remember something that happened in the morning and it always takes me several minutes to remember if it actually happened and when it happened. Everything looks like really old memories, I can't even remember what I did yesterday.

I just feel like a freaking robot, not even a human being. I just... exist. I'm empty inside.

This morning I woke up really early because and went outside and took my camera with me. I felt like watching the sunset and taking some pictures, because I ALWAYS loved to do so. But all I felt was sleepy.

I didn't feel happy at all.

The only thing I can feel sometimes is a really bad thing, it's like there's something in my throat and all I wanna do is cry.

Does anyone else feel this way? What should I do? I'm tired of taking all of those meds and still feeling this way