I am so nervous... I dont know how to act. Its my last meeting with my t until she comes back on the 15th. The real me just wants to collapse on her couch and cry in fear about what the next 3 weeks are going to bring. I feel so alone and so much like how it was before I found t (in this all by myself, confused). But I can't do that. its her birthday today. I want her to have a good day. I want her to rest easy, and go into surgery knowing that I will be ok, so that she can focus on herself. I hav created this facade the last couple days of false self confidence. I can't fall apart now. I just am so confused. And I dread our last meeting. I wish I could tell her how I really feel, but I can't ruin her day. Im in such a position... :/