I need to work on being strong for my son. That's a big reason I feel so bad is because he is sensitive and knows there is something wrong. For a while now he's been saying I'm sorry you don't feel good mom, and I always tell him he shouldn't feel bad because he isn't at fault for anything. But I know need to show him I'm ok but I'm not good at pretending that I'm alright. He is the reason I need to get out of this deep depression...thanks to all of you for sharing your stories it helps me to know I'm not alone