Please do not hol back, i know you want to. Hun it's ok to fall apart it has not been easy for you and with her gone it is going to be tough. You will make her day by being totally honest with her. I will be right in your pocket. Also know we here at pc are here for you. I cant stress the more honest you are the better help she can give you. She cant help you if you are not honest. ((((((((((((((Hugs))))))))))