Wasn't it just a week or so ago that you were suicidal, considering the hospital? You just started meds, right? This is NOT the time to quit therapy; right now therapy is vitally important. Stop your running. Settle in and do the work that therapy is. Didn't you just post about your T saying it was time to dig deeper into your issues? Is that what you are running from? Sounds like you need to discuss these fears with your T, get past them, and continue working on you.