Depression came from earlier on this yr. It's from years and years of suppressed stress from coming out early this yr, dealing with ppl and discrimination and the emotional rollercoaster that I was in with my ex. This person came into my life amongst many others that I've met online who has become good friends with me through time since my getting better. It's the void in my heart. I am well aware of that void and won't ignore it. But I've learned. Not to fill it with others. She's just someone I fell for through time - 6 months of nonstop communication through all means. It felt deeper than what I had with my ex. I guess that's why I'm having such a hard time.