I guess my thoughts on the issue, Moose, is why are you so devastated by your doc dropping the "bomb" of possibly being Borderline? You're in a psychiatric facility for suicide ideation. . .what makes you opposed or frightened by the proposal that you might be suffering from BPD? BPD is something that a person can recover from. Bipolar disorder is a biological disorder that will be something that follows you through your life, requiring medication to manage for a LIFE TIME! I guess my confusion is why are you in such an uproar instead of saying, "Whew! Something that is cureable. I might have a mental illness that responsed to therapy and personal attention! YEAH! I guess I'll investigate this possible diagnosis and see how I can approach it!"

Just my take on things.