i'm sorry you're hurting. <3 the journey to recovery is slow if you have little support in real life for whatever reason - they don't understand if they've never experienced it, which is usually why sufferers are unable to get the kind of support we really want and need. healing happens, it's just slower. so, we turn to forums, therapists, groups, etc. <3 <3 <3 keep posting and remember you are never alone in this fight.