(I think the english teacher is on vacation.)

You bring up a good point. What if they are thinking the same things about themselves and my insecurity is only feeding their insecurity? To think this way of myself, to myself is kind of selfish in it's own way. Kind of self absorbed. I know that's not what you meant or wrote but I'm spinning my own wheels here and to cut myself a break is to free myself from being so concerned about me and that'll give me the oppurtunity to think of other things and people instead.
It's like having a conversation and being so concerned what you're going to say next and trying to come up with something in your mind that you're not really listening and hearing what the other person is saying.
Yeah. I think it's definetly a case of self absorption.
That's perfect. Now I can just tell myself to knock it off because I'm being totally self absorbed. It might actually work.