You know, KD-sometimes I wish I had kids so I can get that "justification" feeling when I see them being able to play innocently and happily and to know that I created that for them. It's such a sweet validation of sorts to know in spite of the hell you've been through, you are capable of making something good from something really bad that happened 'cause you can appreciate it sooo much more when it's right and it's good and you're not passing on that nastiness to the next generation.
(((KD and Little Man)))))) I'm very happy for you and for Little Man.
It sounds like your inner workings are healing. I'm by no means knowledgeable about healing inner workings but I get a feeling that it's happening within you from reading this post.