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Nov 27, 2012, 11:12 PM
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Member Since: May 2010
Location: Some where between my inner mind and the solar system.
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I'm finding that the wanting is much better than the having. As in in isn't as great as I thought it would be to be back home. Still have to lie down most of the day, still have pain, still need to find a way to let go and let others "do" stuff for me. Glad to have Sir. I'm starting to hate getting out of bed. It's easier not to move. It just gets too frustrating, all the obstacles that stop me from doing what I want to. Need something down low,.... gotta wait for someone to come in and get it out, drop something to awkward or heavy for the reacher,... gotta wait...want something up high, nope not allowed to climb a ladder...can't drive. I've never been good with accepting no, or you can't but I don't want to go though any more surgeries so I gotta follow the rules. Besides, there is the pain penalty to pay if I do it my way. Never been a fan of pain either. Finally I might learn patience, a word I tried to teach my daughter because lord knows I have never had any. Always had plenty of patience for others especially animals and young kids but none for myself. Always thought it was too late. Now someone/thing is having a great laugh on me!  I'm sure glad I bought a bunch of 007 movies at the half price book store before the surgery.
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…Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …...
Desiderata Max Ehrmann
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