oh malsy i can totally relate! i suffer from major depressive disorder. this lea me to drink excessively once i discovered alcohol lifted my mood or numbed me to any thing feeling that upset me. i thought i had discovered a cure for the depression. the result- i became an alcoholic. in my case i sought help for the alcoholism and the depresssion at the same time. i need an antidepessant to aid me. not everyone does but for me it works. in therapy i leaned new life skills and coping skills as well. i needed to do this to aid me also. the combo works. i also go to AA to reinforce not drinking. there i also learn more about myself and they offer me how to live a better way.
this is my story and perhaps it will help you. i wish you the best. i'm so glad you posted. there's so much support here in this forum.