I woke up today feeling low. I didn't want to get out of bed to go to class, I didn't even want to shower. I just wanted to sit and sulk in my low. I finally decided to get up but had already missed two classes and I felt like a failure. Now I'm sitting here contemplating just packing up and leaving college. I feel as if I can't do it anymore. I feel as if I'll never accomplish anything. I don't want to go back to my family but I don't want to stay here either. I don't know what to do. I don't actually have the means to leave but I don't have the energy to stay. I'm far from home and I'm scared of these highs and lows. I just want to be happy but I don't feel like I ever will be. The thought of running away gives me slight peace of mind. I don't know what to do.