Well, PTSD can be very hard and if you feed into it, it can also be very "dibilitating".
You have to get help, and learn how "not" to feed into it, it is quite a challenge for a while, but you "can" slowly learn how to control it better and even overcome the PTSD strong and challenging "episodes" that are so confusing.

Do you have a therapist? It is important that you get help with this so you can work through it.

(((Hugs))))
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