Right now, my mind is mostly thinking about Destiny Dreamer, my eskie that died last Thursday morning.....when I close my eyes, I see her bouncing around & barking with joy for her food or for whatever I might be giving her (that was before she got sick a few months ago). In the now, I focus on my 4 eskies that are around me & who are constantly asking for attention......while I also think about the things that I need to get done around my farm & what project I need to finish or what project I need to do next that is work around the farm, yard, & house related. Then my mind also shifts to figuring how who I want to finish off the divorce demands....but also trying to make sure I am looking at the big picture & seeing every possible gotcha that could get me. Dealing with the foreclosure issues that my idiot stbxh managed to get himself into......& make sure I have my finances under absolute control.

On the fun side, I am working on an art project that I started awhile ago & I need to have finished by next Sunday.....while my mind is thinking about other art projects I want to get done for Christmas gifts.

While my mind wanders to the future & dreams of the time I will actually have my horse here with me as I have been away from her for 5 years & desperately want to have her with me.....while at the same time trying to recover from Destiny's death, I'm glad in some ways not to have the extra responsibility.

Back of my mind thinks about my DBT things I have learned & the Bible study information I have gained over the last 5 years.....putting all the dots together & allowing it all to make sense.

Sometimes I think about something that someone I know is going through & try to either figure out what help can be offered or the right words to say to give the right kind of support.

Seems like my mind is never quiet though even though at times those thoughts all seem to be in the subconscious......it's hard to go to sleep at night....but getting easier now that I'm not doing the care giving for Destiny that I have done for so many months......I have finally had some peaceful sleep at night where my mind can just rest & heal......but I seriously think it never shuts off.