It is very strange how some things never leave you. The emotional scars always seem to be there. Lurking in the shadows some times and in your face other times. I just posted on here in the survivors of abuse forum. "Just another little piece to the puzzle" or something like that. I do know exactly what you are going threw. I was raped repeatedly for 9 mo 25+ years ago. Things are just now starting to work there way up to the surface. I have been married to the same man for 18 years and still have issues due to the rape come and go. I am so used to it the T seems to think the issues more than come and go. They have a constant impact on how I see things and deal w/ things. But this is your thread about yoy and I really feel for you. I don't have any great words of advice only words of encouragement and knowledge that I share some of the same feelings you do. You are not alone. Often that means more than anything just to know someone can relate and you are not alone.

Keep talking to us hare at PC. It's a wonderful place and everyone here is so accepting. Keep in touch.