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Originally Posted by greyclouds
I started group therapy today.
It's called skills for life!! Meaning that they are going to try help us deal with emotions in a "correct" manor!!!
I've been really struggling not to si the past few days. I can so far say I have not.
Go me!! But I am exhausted..
It's was nice to meet people face to face and no that I truely am not the only one.
I'm fairly confident. When I 1st got into group I could barely say my name as I felt like I wanted to burst into tears, why? No clue.
I came away feeling I guess okay open minded if you like.
I not sure if this group will help but I know I have to try.
Never the less, my head is fuzzy and I can't stop thinking of my trusted so called friend.
The feelings in my soul feel well I'm not sure calm maybe. It's I'm my yummy.
But my head is confused,
I guess I just writing in here cos I'm biding time trying to distract myself.
I having being carrying around my friend like a teddy bear since Sunday but with out cuddling it,
I hope I can stay strong and not give in.
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greyclouds,
you should be very proud of yourself for having the courage to begin the process of healing. Many never get that far. Perhaps the tears are those of relief. The guilt and shame that go along with SI are heavy burdens, and you have found others that know exactly how you feel. There will be waves of fear, relief, and sometimes wishing that you had not come forward. Understand that they are all part of the healing process, and as odd as it sounds, a kind of grief at having to let go of a coping mechanism that you had gotten used to, but that no longer works.
No one deserves to be tortured, either physically or emotionally. You obviously have an inner strength and are a sensitive person. Those are good things. Hang onto them, and when things get bad, the forum is here with you as is your new group.
Sam2