Button, two weeks is not a very long time to be on meds. It can be a while before your mood evens out to where it's going to be more long-term. I think for that reason alone it's a good reason to check in with a T to make sure nothing is going awry.

And besides that... wasn't it T who suggested the meds which are now helping you? I actually don't quite remember, but that's what's coming to mind now.

I feel for you, Button. I think everyone here with depression can totally relate to that feeling of, "I've been fine for two weeks, I don't need to do anything anymore." Nope. That's like saying, "I've been dieting for a year and I lowered my cholesterol; now I can eat whatever I want." Depression and grief are about maintaining a lifestyle that is going to get you there, and it's a long road. Things WILL suck in T sometimes. But I think they'll suck a lot more without.

Plus, I think a lot of this has to do with your ex. You really really need to find your way to the other side of this. It's not fair that you have to do it alone, but you can do it with your T. And I think wanting to run from your T is a manifestation of what's going on with your ex... you're trying to leave before someone can hurt you. I think it would help you an awful lot to stick it through and learn to tolerate and manage your fear, so that you can do that in your dating life.

Thought of you this weekend and wondered how you were doing. I'm so glad you're feeling better and that meds are helping. I hope you can continue to stick with the things that are helping you.